I have seen...
A woman who had burned her entire body except her face but was feeling no pain at all
A girl who had been hit by a train and had been smeared over 250 yards of track
A man die in front of my eyes and then get up and try to strangle me
A 9 day old baby lieing cold and stiff in its cot while down stairs the congratulations cards sat on the window sill
A little old lady who had broken virtually every bone in her body appologise to me for being a nuisance
A twenty stone marine with a broken arm hysterical with pain
A man die 5 times in the space of twenty minutes
Two collegues deciding which victim will live and which victim will die
A baby come into this world
That's some list, lot's of things to see and comprehend. I've had various dealings with ambulence crew, my daughter had a massive stroke at 8 months of age, went into a coma and has had some pretty huge seizures that we couldn't get her out of with the diazepam. I never really know what they think about what they're having to deal with, it's usually a pretty surreal situation you're in whenever you meet them and they're like a link coming into your house and taking over ...such a relief , I have a lot of respect for you.
I suppose you have to be very strong or find peace with it all somehow. Goodluck.